As I slid into the seat of my car, the cold from outside and the exhaustion of the day, followed me. I started the car, turned on the headlights, and slowly pressed the gas. 

A feeling of dismay hit me. I didn’t want to go home. 

I stopped the car, put it into park, and had a total meltdown. I screamed at the top of my lungs and slammed my hands on the steering wheel. 

 

The truth is, the thought of walking in the door to my home and going from my corporate job to the job of “mom”, felt daunting. 

I loved my kids, and my wife, but the person I didn’t love was me. 

I had reached a point of disgust with myself and I didn’t know what was happening. Our twins were just a year old, and I had put them and everyone else before me. 

I had put myself on the back burner. I was unmotivated, tired, and had lost all my confidence and self-love.

 

My mind raced back to something I had recently read. “Do you want to be average? Because average is just like everybody else.” 

I felt a stab in my heart. Here I was living an average life. I knew there was another level that I wanted to reach. It was time to stop trying all the quick-fixes, making excuses for not working out, and start living a healthier life.

 

As I pressed the gas and pulled back onto the road, that was the moment I promised myself to begin living a happier, healthier and more energized life.

 

I went home, burst into the house, and opened up to Trina. It was as if the words of what I had just gone through couldn’t shoot out of my mouth fast enough. 

My thoughts, my feelings, it all poured out in that moment.

 

We decided to look for a program for moms, and interestingly enough, couldn’t find one. We asked each other “What if we take what we both know, learn a hell of a lot more, and create a program for moms ourselves? 

So, we did. 

  

I’ve leveled-up my life and I love who I am.